Lately, I have been so distracted with the state of the country that I don’t think I have felt anything but fear for the past 8 months. I have forgotten what it feels like to grounded and safe. I have forgotten what it feels like to feel like myself, to feel carefree and not worry about the future.
I need a place to get out my frustration, my anger, my fear and channel all that into something else; something productive. Something that helps me not lose myself physically, mentally and emotionally. Magots are not going to take my life, i can’t let them.
The first thing I did was open a new savings account. This will be an account to put funds that I would have spend on clothes, makeup, bric-a-brac that I don’t need and instead of hitting that “buy now” button, I will pause and put that amount from my checking to this special savings account. In theory this all sounds good, I just need to put my theory into practice.
There are other ideas but lets just take this a day at a time. Honestly, writing this post is a win. I don’t care about analytics, readers or publishing, I just need a space to hold myself accountable and since I have this and am paying for it I will use what I have….lol and write, document and post.
Let’s see where this takes me…