I swear I’m shopping more than ever. Justification is rampant. I’m tired of beating myself up and either I fix it myself or I need to seek professional help.
I am going to try again to do a no buy/low buy. Like when I quit smoking I need to pick a date and stick with it. As you can see a year ago I tried the no buy year and although it didn’t stick, I did make a dent in my shopping habits, but with all habits if you don’t keep practicing they will fall off.
I thought about starting a YouTube or something else where I show up daily but in accordance with using what u have I will be using this platform.
I’m looking at the calendar. One month from today is Sunday, May 22, looks like a perfect day to start.
So in upcoming posts I want to write out my “Why” -all the sites say to establish this “Why”. Honestly right now my “why” is because I am disgusting myself with this unnecessary shopping.
Also the triggers or justifications-get them out write them down and figure out how to head them off. The shit that goes on in my head is tiresome and I’m truly sick of living on this merry-go-round of shopping and beating myself up. I want to stop. Like any good addict I get caught up in the moment and then the shame….the pure pure shame eats me up.
I hope I can do this. I don’t know if I can but I want to be strong I want to do this on my own. I think I should be able to but I feel like I’m going to feel like I’m floating in unknown, unsupported territory.
Daily accountability and journaling the pain, the withdraw, the humiliation, the shame and the justifications that swirl in my head is what I’m hoping that will help. It is worth a shot.
So I have 30 days before my NS year, I’ll refer to these days as BNS (before No-shopping). Set guidelines, alternate activities and a budget sheet (that one really scares me).
Deep breath…..